The peace after the storm, Rainbow homebirth
The midwife and Myself with the baby. 2week checkup.
After having our Molar pregnancy I felt as though there was something wrong with me. I felt as though we have been cursed or maybe we did something wrong that would make us not be blessed with growing life of a child, again. But the Lord is FAITHFUL!!
The Doctor got the test back from taking that molar pregnancy from my body and it had said that it was not cancerous! So thankful! They advised me to not get pregnant again for a year or long. To allow my body to heal and they told me the risk of having another molar pregnancy was higher and for complications in future pregnancies were higher as well. So we had planned to wait 2 years that seemed to be a good time. At the time our youngest baby was around a year and a half and if we waited 2 more years that would help that child to be more independent and that much older. I kept busy with homeschooling and taking care of our little families. We had also just taken another job that relocated us in the deep south of Texas.On the boarder of Texas and Mexico, some call it little Mexico. It was a culture change for the children and myself. Almost everyone spoke spanish and was Hispanic. We on the other hand were not. We couldnt speak to anyone and when we seen anyone who were white they stood out to us and we would make conversation with them because we were so lonely for fellowship. The children and myself tryed to speak to some of the locals but the accent was to strong or they could not understand us so we felt sad.
We lived in a small one room hotel room again. With just the close on our backs and the computer and phone to help keep us in contact with people back home. We only had my husbands rig truck so we were stuck in our hotel room all day untill he came home and we went out to eat every night. We looked forward to those nights when he came back to the hotel room and we went out to eat. We spent our days learning something from online or reading. The children brought a small bag of toys and the Wii. So that kept them busy too. They had a pool at the hotel so the children would swim most of the days when they were done with there school work. I would sit in the door way out of the sun and watch them swim. There were very few children that would join then but when they did they couldnt communicate with them as they also spoke spanish.
As the days went on I started to get sick and couldnt get outa bed and I knew something was really wrong. I went to the doctors and they confirmed I was pregnant and that I was pregnant with another molar pregnancy. They wanted to take it out right away. I told them that this was my second one and I wanted to wait and go home and get this one out while I was near family to support me. After all I didnt have anyone to watch the children as I went in for surgery. My husband could not take off to watch them. I came home and started to take some homeopathic supplements to help if I miscarried naturally. I waited and waited. Everyday I couldn't get out of the bed from the sickness from the HCG levels being so high from the molar pregnancy. Months passed by.....
We praised and thanked the lord daily for anything we could. The children would come in the room and get bbn on there knees andnpray for me and asked the lord to help mommy to get better and let the molar pregnancy turn normal. My husband would do the same every morning before he left for work and evening before bed. When I would crawl out of bed to go and get something to eat I was so dizzy and couldnt even stand straight up, It was such a blur.
I knew we had to do something quick it wasnt getting any better and nothing was changing so I booked a flight with the kids back home to PA. My husband was a bit sad I was leaving. But I felt i had no choice but to go and get this taken care of before something else happend, and so I could feel better.
We stuffed everything we could in our bags to bring back home . That thing weighed a ton I couldnt even lift it. Haha. My husband dropped us off with tears and kisses as he left us in the airport all alone. I could barley lift my head and legs to walk but I mustered up the strenghth to get home. My parents picked us up at the airport and took us back to our lake home. The next day I made an apointment to get the DNC and get this molar pregnancy out and start to feel better. I left the children with my parents. I drove the long lonely drive and walked into the office of the doctor. He did an internal exam and then sent me in for an ultrasound. The ultra sound lady asked question and then turned the screen my way. And said well theres a baby in there. I said well probably wont hear heart beat she turns the sound on and sure enough a heart beat! I started sobbing in happy tears!! I was told that this baby was a molar pregnacy after 5 months of waiting and thinking I was having another molar pregnancy. The doctor in Texas even seen and gave me paper work confirming it was a molar pregnacy and I was needing it out. I was shocked and so happy! They asked if I wanted to know what baby was and I said sure and they told me it was a girl. My 1st baby girl I was even more excited! The enemy was trying to take my 1st baby girl!
The doctor took me back in the room after the ultra sound and talked with me. He was also in shock! He took the paper work I had from the other doctors office and was gonna see how they could have mistaken what was happening. We never did get an answer what really happend in medical terms but I didnt even care at that point. We prayed and prayed and waited untill we couldnt wait any longer and I believe the lord changed that molar pregnancy into a baby! I vowed I was gonna leave the rest of this pregnancy into the lords hands. I had to do something diffrent this time then before. The last pregnacy was traditional but ended in a c section for the nurses inpatient nature. ( a story for another time)
At this time we were already practicing natural living and healthy eatting. We researched for days and asked and interviewed many medical doctors and midwives. We read many books and research every possible outcome of labor and birth. I had the perfect peace of God, I was not afraid! After all he just changed this molar pregnancy into a live baby girl! After finding out it was a live baby girl I did not feel an more sickness! It was completely gone!
We decided that we were gonna have this baby at home with the help of the lord. Our family was scared for us and convinced us to at least have a midwife come to our home and help us. So we were 9months pregnant and found a midwife whom lived 2hours from us. She took us and started comming weekly. She did everything a doctor would do but even more! She drove 2hours to my home and counseled us and got to know us deeply in that month!
I went over my due date by 1 week. She assured me that was fine and to just wait. Finally the time came.
My mother called and asked if I remembered my father's birthday was today. I told her yes of course but I felt as though I probably was gonna have the baby soon. Just as I spoke those words contractions started. I felt cramps and tightening in my abdomen. It came and went and my mom started timing them as she was on the phone with me. She said they were 10min apart regularly for an hour. So I told my mother to come up and I would tell the midwife so she could start the 2 hour drive.
I got the children dressed as I was contracting and waited for my mom and husband to get home. My mother arrived first and as she timed them and got excited she then said it was 7min apart and a bit more noticeable. She couldnt believe how calm I was and was in aw... as she watched me. Finally my husband got home and my mother took the children to get some food. We called the midwife and told her I couldnt get off the tolet, my body cleaning itself out making room for the baby to come down. She advices me to get in the bath tub and she was an hour away at that time. I got into the tub and it was so relaxing I may have dosed off for a few mins and then my body starting pushing and I knew that baby was comming out fast. My husband called the midwife and told her what was happening and she said she was right down the road. She came rushing in and my body squeezed maybe 2 more times and the baby came out! It was like the hands of the lord squeezed my belly like toothpaste and the baby moved down farther and father and then out. I was calm the whole time and felt completely safe! I asked the lord to take the baby out quickly and painlessly! I had very little pain if any at all. The feeling I had as the baby came out was so orgasmic and beautiful! The midwife grabbed the baby out of the water and put her on my chest and she was screaming up a storm. I nursed her right away as she was looking for my breast. She fiercely latched on and began to suck!. I cried and thanked the lord for his beautiful gift! I thought She looked just like my husband! My husband took the baby to the living room as I got dressed and went to the room. It had just stormed and the light was just started to peek out above the mountains and clouds. We felt a calm and a peace surrounded us as we held our beautiful baby girl!
In the living room just mins old
The lord is the healer and brought us so much healing through that storm. The calm and promise of a beautiful life the rainbow at the end of our storm! ( our baby girl) born on my daddy's birthday! Happy birthday daddy!
